U-turn.

Finally, the path seems... is going to have an end soon.

not sth new... the same old problem which appear about 2-3 times each year...
"is it really worthy to stay and withstand?" im really not sure...
mayb others are right... i just know wt i dun want rather than the real need. and mayb i will be proved that i am so stupid to give up now, which the current one is already the most suitable for me ever. i really duno.

or am i only deny to admit?

i knew the matter will go on unless i cheat myself perfectly for more than 200months.
i knew i will need it 10 years later but not enjoy the period before it.

the only concern is just "am i giving up my only chance?"
what if i dont? will i regret later?

mayb its really idiot to think before~ just, seem decided.
good luck to me.